In the hadiths, the Almighty God has instructed and shown this Ummah that marriages that are large and small are an expense to Allah, and the good news was given that if you do this, you will marry by Reza and there will be great blessings in them. The major reason for the confusions in your life is that we have been influenced by the heavenly blessings and divine favors by deviations from the Holy Prophet's instructions about happiness, that is what we are taught. Granted, blessed is he who has the least burden.